On greatness. (An afternoon during Johann’s 4th birthday)

Yesterday, out of boredom, I watched videos from Youtube. Since I want to make my time meaningful, I searched for the speeches of my two idols – Steve Jobs and Michael Jordan. These two guys shaped my competitive nature and inspired me to take risks and responsibilty.

During his era, I don’t really like MJ. In fact, I am sick of his games that I always observe 90% of the coverage of the basketball game shows MJ (to the extent the camera will show him tie his shoes). I also even bet for the other team every time Chicago Bulls plays on the Finals. After his era of greatness, I suddenly realized that the NBA became lesser and these bunch of high contract all stars are more inclined to play the game because of the KWAN! No offense to NBA fans but it’s simply the way of the world. MJ  built an epitome of legacy in sports and I stand that he is “the greatest basketball of all time.” The hip hop version of DR J (quoting Shaq).

Watching MJ delivered his speech on the Hall of Fame, made me understand that everyday we should challenge ourselves at work, home, and life as a whole. MJ is the person who always take all the criticisms and disprove those who opposed him. And for him, it’s an everyday process. Not laid back but always focus that you have to improve every day to be the best. That you persevere, that you take punches of life and fight back. Not to show everyone but for you to conquer yourself’s negativity. I like his parting words during his speech,

” Never say never. Limits, just like fears, are often just an illusion.”


As early as five years old, I have these questions in life, ” Why am I here? Why I can see these things? What will I see and be if I’m not here?” Life is something we are experiencing right now and we have to do the things we love. I know we have lots of complaints and questions,  (which often because the norm dictates something that oppposes your intuitiions), but for me LIFE is a timeframe that we should make most of what we have in our tank. It’s a time to be unique. To be who you are and not a shadow of someone else’s life.

Knowing Steve Jobs is one of the most important milestone in my life. He made me live my life always on a deathground -to live your day as if it’s your last. I don’t want to be a shadow of him but he definitely inspire me to put a dent in the universe. Being successful is going through lots of tribulations before you make something work. I am in that process and it’s exciting. It’s fun and each day you have to go ou there and impart yourself to the unforgiving world! 🙂

Let me tell you this, “I will continue to change myself for the betterment of the world.” And someday, if my life is about to deplete, I will have the answers to the questions haunting me for years…. but I will leave those answers to the world because it is my legacy. 

– Sydney

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In this world, there is always one person waiting for another, be it in the middle of a desert,or in the middle of a big city.

And when those two people pass each other and their eyes meet, past and future lose all importance, and the only thing that exists is that moment and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun was written by the same Hand, the Hand that awakens Love,

And that makes a twin soul for everyone who works, rests and seeks treasures under the sun.

Without this our human dreams would make no sense.



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Passion is like a storm that changes abruptly normalcy.  A lot of people are scared when it appears, because definitely it will destroy all things it finds in its path.

None of us wants a chaotic life. That is why most of the time a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a structure that is already rotten. They are replacements of the past builders.  

Other people think differently: they surrender immediately, hoping to find in passion the solution to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything.

Now, I don’t know which is more destructive – Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it.

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11 minutes

“Today, while we were walking around a lake, the woman who was with me, a writer, a life entirely different from mine – threw a pebble into the water. Small circles appeared where the pebble fell, which grew and grew until they touched a duck that happened to be passing and which had nothing to do with the pebble. Instead of being afraid of the unexpected wave, he decided to play with it.

Some hours before that scene, i went into a coffee shop, heard a voice, and it was as if God had thrown a pebble into that place. The waves of energy touched both me and a woman sitting in a corner writing a poem. She felt the vibrations, and so did I. SO what now?

The writer knows when she has found a subject to write. The musician knows when his instrument is well tuned. I am aware there are certain phrases which are not written by me, but by a man full of “light”; I am that man though I refuse to accept it.

I could carry on like this, but I could also, like the duck on the lake, have fun and take pleasure in that sudden ripple that set the water rocking.

There is a name for that pebble: passion. It can be used to describe the beauty of an earth-shaking meeting between two people, but it isn’t just that. It’s there in the excitement of the unexpected, in the desire to do something with real fervor, in the certainty that one is going to realize a dream. Passion sends us signals that guide us through our lives, and it’s up to me to interpret those signs.

I would like to believe I’m in love. With someone I don’t know and who didn’t figure in my plans at all. All these months of self control, of denying love, have had exactly the opposite result: I have let myself be swept away by the first person to treat me a little different.

It’s just as well I don’t know anything about her. I don’t know what’s in her;  that way I can lose her without having to blame myself for another missed opportunity.

And if that what happens, if I have already lost her, I will at least have gained one very happy day in my life. Considering the way the way the world is, one happy day is almost a miracle.”

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… And we’ll sail into the skies.

… And we’ll dance into the rhythm of the soul

Because I believe in the fulfillment of our dreams

If you just hold on to my hands tonight….

We’ll fly high and reach for the stars above.

For the night is so clear

YOU and I are one.

It seems you are near,

but the truth is you’re far

And it seems it is true,

but it’s NOT.

And it seems it is fair,

but the truth it’s so RUDE

And it seems it is right,

but it hurt from the START

I guess I could not rise up from this state

Because I have fallen – deeply in your love

And if the time will come that I could say what I feel

Then I will soar so high in your LOVE….


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Tell ME!

Tell me… who do you think I am?

It’s okay if you are frustrated. So am I.

But we’re frustrated for different reasons.

I’m frustrated of the past, and you’re frustrated of what the future can become.

So I’ll tell you…

I won’t let myself drown on this death ground, I will rise up and prove that you’re all wrong.

I know myself better than you, and you haven’t seen my best yet. 

Tell me… who do you think I am?

I am more than your emotions, I am a quiet force.

I will be more than EVERYTHING you thought I’ll ever  be….

– SHiNjI 3



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Ala ala sa Likod ng Kandila

Hinahampas ng hangin ang alon sa dagat

Pilit na hinahawi bituin sa ulap

Subukin mong sisirin lalim ng buhay ko

At iyong matatagpuan, liwanag na totoo

Suyuin mo ang hangin

At pilitin mong lunurin sa dilim

Isang kislap ng kandila ang magbabalik

Ng ating ala-ala

Pilitin mong pag-alabin ang apoy sa dagat ng pag-asa

At tuluyang lumisan sa isang magulong kasalukuyan…

Suyuin mo ang hangin

At pilitin mong lunurin sa dilim

Isang kislap ng kandila ang magbabalik

Ng ating ala-ala

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